Everything always comes back down to the way i dont want it to be. I have an awesome day, but always the next day goes downhill again. why is this? ok so if you have no idea what im talking about, its dave again. he said something last night, which made me think. alot. why are things so horribl between us? why does he hate me so much? why cant we just be friends. instead of always being horrible to each other? i wish i had the guts to talk to him about it? is it that i did something wrong? or is it jut the way he is? why do i even still care about this, pretty much exactly one year after everything happened? i wish he would read this, or something, i wish i could tell him how i feel about this whole situation without it being awkward, or making things worse. but i cant. so i guess this is how things will stay, ill just keep on wishing till i get the guts to talk to him.
